whew!

Whew! Sometimes its those little shakeups in your day which are exactly what the doctor ordered. The moments in your day when everything clicks, and for a little while your head breaths clarity.

five signs that you might like somebody.

5.) you make excuses to check your phone every 10 seconds

4.) you daydream about them

3.) you make excuses to see them

2.) you can't pay attention to a word there saying

1.) you start wondering if your just "friends"

Rules!

have you ever gotten tired of letting rules have in your control  life?  Have you ever wondered why you get up and keep showing up to job for a manager who didn't pass high school but continue to roll on a power trip, or  why do i get up and go to school to be taught be teachers who failed at their professions. If you have then its time to perform  a psychoanalysis on yourself. When you search from within i find more often than not that my true passions are dying to unleash. Sure, its expected that i go to school, get a degree, get a cushy corporate job,  have a family, and  bust out three kids but is this my dream, or an idea that's been crammed into my head since i was three years old.
                Its interesting to think more often about the motivations behind our actions. Education is important, but the onus is ultimately on us to educate ourselves. When i have a test on Monday and am having trouble the teacher isn't there to guide me through things and hold my hand becuase if you want to be educated on a certain subject we will teach ourselves. School isn't hard , it just boils down to weather we find a meaning in it. And Should we really waste our time learning something that deep down we think is pointless?
              I see so many people working so hard just to break even, or pay the bills, and when i asked my parents why they show up to work they told me, "becuase everyone has to work". Fuck that, where is the freedom of choice in this? I thought America was suppose to be about how we have the freedom of choice, and if showing up at some meaningless job is what it takes to be part of the 90th percentile in the middle class than i'd honestly rather be poor. At least if i'm poor im not getting raped by the government and watching my tax money flow into the wallets of the richest 1%.
            This notion of going against the grain has always appealed to me, becuase it seems to be what success is all about. I mean if everyone follows the same blueprint then innovation doesn't exist, creativity is stagnant, and change never occurs. Did Martin Luther king follow the blueprint? No. Did Ghandi wait for change to happen? No.
Sure, its scary to be on your own, but think of how gratifying it is to prove all the haters wrong, think of the absolutive euphoria when you finally tame your dreams. Anyways, fuck the rules they were put there to make us think twice about things, but whoever made these rules don't give two shits about me, or you,  so why should we follow them!

Explore

            Sometimes its easy to feel lost. I am constantly asking myself the same questions over and over, what is the purpose of my actions? Do We go to school just for the purpose of getting a better job and moving up the ladder? Or is it something bigger? Either way i don't feel like wasting anymore time.

           One of the biggest flaws of humans is we are privy to procrastination. I'm probably one of the biggest culprits becuase my mind will race with idea after idea, yet i can't seem to focus it in one area. The human mind becomes dangerous once you start putting it to work towards a goal. Most people discover that anything we set our minds to is possible, the only problem is now that we understand the possibilities, we the proper motivation to acheive the goal.

      Life is an adventure, and i want to strive for a change in this world in my limited time, but when i ask others i've heard, " well what can i really do about it". It's that exact attitutude which i want to prove wrong. This is where my idea will come in. If you truly want things in life, you need to first apply yourself, and then continually have motivation. The first step for my idea will be these next few weeks of application where i can hopefully get things rolling.

Song and Trailer of the day!

The new Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows trailer is out I'd love to hear your thoughts!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB-CRHdaPAo

Also this is a really old song, but it helped me get through some tough time the other day: check out Savage garden!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uB4lT5CblA&feature=related

Feeling alone

I've been isolated from the world, and confused about what exactly i want. Life is like a train when its working; it's a full steam ahead locomotive which can't be stopped, yet when its broken down the tracks  seem to be broke constantly. Sometimes its not about knowing what you want especially when your mind changes on a daily basis. I think maybe  uncertainty is a sign that i should look for something else in my life to find meaning.
          When you have a relationship with someone theres only two options when things go bad, making up, or breaking up. If you choose to breakup theres two ways you can handle the situation. One person will want to fix things and say, " baby i love you we can get through this". However, the Other person will try to play things off completly aloof as if the relationship wasn't even a big deal in the first place, they will forget your number, and forget they ever knew you. I acted like i didn't care, but karma came back to get me becuase six monthes later i was the one crying and she had already moved on. Stuff like this is what makes it scary to be alone, and scary to bring things to an end, but i screw it becuase i refuse to live life wondering "what if".

Fear is diabolical

              Your Heart is pounding like a drum, every thought has dissappeared, and doubt creeps in like high tide on a mid summer afternoon. Im talking about fear, a rougish emotion which strikes subtly, but undeniably quick. The emotion is shared by most people,and we can choose to use it or let it drain us. I remember when i had to give a speech for the first time, and i was petrified, fidgeting, and my mind felt numb to thought. The only thoughts which were running through my head were run away, or pretend your sick, yet when i actually got up and performed the speech it was empowering. I had accomplished something my mind told me not to  attempt, but nothing topped the rush of adrenaline which  ensued.
         I still get afraid to do things and my mind is a sneaky little bastard. It loves to contradict itself and can convince me i could fly one second, and tell me i can't get out of bed the next. I want to work on living with less fear in my life becuase i have been blessed with one life and it should be cherished and taken advantage of. Trying more things, embracing failure, and ending my obsession with what other people think. Yes sometimes i need to cater to an audience, but ultimatley if i succeed or fail the only person i can blame is myself. Why care about what anyone thinks when they could care less about it. Acting taught me to take risks and go out on a limb. No matter what if you try your best you will have your dignity, and i can certainly live with that.

Dentist!!

  

        From the moment someone takes their first step into the dentist office, butterflies are already swirling in your stomach. I always get the feeling like i'm going in for a major surgery even if its just something simple like a filling. I precariously walk in the office and gaze around, usually it's bland white office with a few altruistic secretaries at the front desk ready to make small talk so you feel better. Looking around the room you may notice the same convoluted look on people's faces becuase their all  thinking the same thing ," get me out of here", or " god its been like 3 years since my last appointment im screwed."
      When you finally get in the room it gets worse becuase they make you sit in the chair. Its not just any chair, in fact its usually reminds me of a venus fly trap becuase it looks harmless and comfortable until your within its grasp. so you sit their for 15 minutes before the dentist steps in the room. This way you can stare at all the drills, and pointy tools their going to poke around your mouth with. Usually during this fifeteen minutes i calm down and the dentist will sneak in behind me like a rogue assassin and be like, " So how's everything going, are you still in school or at the same job?" Next they'll start calling you buddy, or hunnie to try and make you feel more comfortable even though your about ready to run out of the damn room. Finally, you get asked to open up wide, at this moment you think of every time you forgot to floss, brush, and ignored a cavity; you also begin to start praying that its not too late to save your poor teeth.
        The dentist will start stroking his chin and make a couple of hmm and mhm noises followed by a series of x-rays. Now that your mind is thinking of every possible problem there could be, you will get probed and prodded several times in an area that hurts and they'll ask you after, " are you okay", or " that didn't hurt did it." I always have a cartoon pictured in my head with the nihilistic mad scientist dentist who laughs maniacally and uncontrollably as they drill in my mouth, but its usually not so drastic. Before the dentist lets you know the results they will keep you in suspense for another 10 minutes and always start off by saying well its, " not to bad", or we can fix this." The next words that come out of their mouth usually involve you  shelling out a couple grand in dental work, and how Becky ( the secratary) will setup a consoltation for further examination. Finally your about ready to get out and their already trying to bring you back in, but unfortunatley the dentist is a necessary evil we must deal with in life.

is the women of our dreams out there?

Alot of guys think its impossible to land the girl of their dreams, but I'm here to inform anyone who thinks like that is terribly wrong.The best way to take that girl from work, school, or the grocery store out is too flirt alot and well.

“Hey girl, you’re looking delightfully dazzling today in that dress, is there any way I can see you in it Friday at the movies?” The art of flirting has been going on since the Stone Age, but as time has passed, people have changed and it’s a whole different ballgame in the twenty-first century. Step your game up and don’t be afraid of rejection because confidence will be your best asset in your quest for that cutie you sit next to in math class. Check your baggage at the door because attitudes won’t fly and every girl deserves someone to treat her right. Also, if you plan on making it past the car ride, make sure you have a sense of humor so you can hear laughter rather than crickets.

Step-1 be confident

Confidence is key, so stop shaking with your pre-game nerves, and spit your game like a champ. Girls smell fear like a dog searching for a bone; if they sense it, you will quickly lose any opportunity. Try not to force conversation, make corny jokes, or be phony. If someone doesn’t like you for who you are, then it won’t work anyway because you will just be a fake. So be yourself, and have complete confidence, however, don’t come off as cocky. Don’t settle for just anyone, take pride in how valuable you are and things will fall in place. If she laughs in your face or looks at you as a joke, just shake it off because there are plenty of women out there that will be dying for a shot with you.

Step-2 don't be an a**hole your better than that!

Men are often called, “a**holes.” Women want someone who is going to be a sweetheart. Remember in kindergarten, when the teacher told us to treat others the way we would like to be treated? Well, that applies to dating. If you talk about a girl behind her back, it will just line problems up for you the next day. Would you really want someone doing that to you? Put on your thinking cap, and be the heartthrob that every guy, deep down, can be. Maybe by the end of the night, you will get that meaningful kiss that sparks a fire on her doorstep and in her heart. When you’re ready to talk to her, just remember that two can play games and being charming will bring you a long way.

Step-3- humor

A good laugh will always be the key to a girl’s heart; if you get her to start giggling, you will enjoy each other’s company. We’ve all had that awkward silence on a date where there is nothing to say and you can’t wait to jump back in your car. To avoid this, the best thing to do is replace it with laughter by developing a good sense of humor. When you’re laughing on a date, it means a couple things: You’re enjoying her company and big smirks are on both your faces. If breaking the ice in conversation or a joke is a problem, remember not to try anything elaborate, just be yourself. If you have trouble with making one lady laugh, there are millions of others who will find you hilarious for being yourself. Humor is an easy way to show that you are both having a good time and to prove that the art of flirting is working like a charm.

Now that you have graduated the Flirt Seminar, go out there and try a new game plan. Hold your head up high to the sky and be the most confident guy you can be. Remember to be nice and not a jerk, otherwise, most girls will be walking in the opposite direction. Make sure you have a good time and don’t be afraid to let laughs fly because that means you’re having fun. Be confident, sweet, and humorous –the man of her dreams-- and this will make flirting way easier than it seems.

Waiting Tables

     As soon as i turned eighteen years old i had my eyes set on waiting tables; the idyllic notion of  being suave, charming, and confident as i schmoozed my way to big money. Unfortunately not everyone loves me as much as myself.
         I always loved the waitresses at  restaurants, they are usually friendly, pretty, and confident. I saw myself fitting right in and becoming a natural, this visualization didn't come to fruition right away. As soon as i walked in to apply for a job at Applebee's i was bombarded by two happy go lucky waitresses at the door asking if i would enjoy a table, booth, or high-top. I informed them i was their to fill out an application to become a server, and they both became excited and raved about how they needed waiters.
                They fetched the manager, a skinny, oval faced man who kind of looked like one of those guys who hang around in the bowling alley shuffling  toothpicks between their lips waiting to strike up a chat. He was very friendly and energetic, immediately making me feel welcome. He asked if i had experience serving before which  i had already scripted and rehearsed an answer too, Since i had no real experience other than busing tables. I boasted of my teamwork, outgoing attitude, and how i wanted to go places with the company. I didn't go to far, but just enough to seem highly competent and motivated.
         I ended up landing the job and to my dismay it wasn't how i visualized things. Yes, working with 14 friendly female waitresses sounds like the time of your life, but its also like throwing yourself into Degrassi. All of a sudden its highschool again; people gossiping about who slept with the manager, cooks and servers taking bong rips on five minute breaks so they can drag through their most painful existence, and a sense of general apathy. I was under the impression that i would be working with chefs and people who took pride in their jobs, but in reality my co workers were a collection of misfits who ran cheap scams for drug money, were ex-felons, and smooth talkers just waiting to take advantage of the naive new server.  I was in for a rude awakening into the real world.

Review of "Get him to the Greek"

An exhilarating ride with chest aching laughs, a comedy that breaks the mold.

i didn't really know much about Russell brand other than his role in Forgetting Sarah Marshall where he serenaded the classic "inside of you". I had doubts about the movie before i stepped foot into the theater, but i was pleasantly surprised to find the most original and entertaining comedy of the year so far. There has been regurgitation of the same material in Hollywood lately so to get an original story with some new talent was a needed change of pace. The movie was a gamble becuase it was hinging on Jonah Hill, and Brand delivering epic performances, but they seemed to live up to the hype along with a superb performance by Sean P. Diddy Combs as Sergio. Sergio (P. Diddy) is hilarious as a cutthroat all about the Benjamin's executive who just wants to turn a quick profit.

What the deal is?
Comedy can be hit or miss sometimes, but Get him to the Greek was banging out some laugh out loud moments for most of the film. Sometimes the comedy was over the top and raunchy, yet i would still find myself laughing at Aaron (Hill) puking all over himself, taking shots of adrenaline, and trying to keep up with the outrageous Aldous Snow. The movie takes place in Hollywood where Aaron (Hill) and his girlfriend live together and are perusing their careers. Aaron gets his big break when his idea for a tribute concert sparks an interest in Sergio who controls the Label. He Gives Aaron the opportunity to prove himself by going to London to escort the exiled snow to perform on good morning America, and eventually at the Greek Theater. The movie then chronicles the adventures of the unlikely duo and brings the audience along for the ride.

Is it worth it to buy a movie ticket?

While the film may not win any Oscars it stands out among a lot of garbage summer movies which were supposed to be blockbusters. This is a great date night flick and there will be a lot of laughs and good times in the film. If your looking for a grade A story this might not be your cup of tea, however; The story is creative, original, and boasts a relatively fresh face in Russell Brand which should at least warrant a look at the movie. Overall i haven't seen a comedy since super bad, or the Hangover that made me laugh out loud like i did, so it was $9.50 well spent and I'm definitely interested to see more of Brands work.

The Power of The Human Mind

A walk to remember?

I deeply inhaled the intoxicating aroma of fresh air on a relaxed summer walk throughout main street. I gazed at all the fine restaurants, Italian, Korean, Thai, and Jamaican. I remembered a time when i believed it was impossible to change. A time where the mind told me some are born with talent and others are not so blessed. The truth struck me like an anvil from a bugs bunny cartoon and life started to make sense. People are capable of any feat no matter how talented, smart, or good looking you think you are. Remember this, becuase i don't have any of those three traits, but i do have confidence in myself. I used to say well I'm just not capable becuase i don't have natural talent like Tiger woods, or the natural IQ like Davinchi, however; when people feel like they aren't talented, practice more to develop the talent, or not smart, read and study until there brain is a finely tuned instrument, even being uncomfortable with your body, eating right and staying physically fit will transform it into a work of art. It may take longer for someone like me to get certain concepts, but at least i can say i gave it my best shot even if its through failure the gratification will be priceless.

Failure can drive you to be better

Certainly finding balance is hard, but its more important not to feed into our addictions. The habits which mold our very being such as eating, sleeping, and smoking all are very hard to control when used in excess, and i can personally testify to that. I remember when i was flunking out of school becuase i cut class to get high out of my mind, but in class i was usually to obliterated to comprehend anything going on. So like many other students, i decided to fly under the radar and do the absolute bare minimum. The teacher would see some potential and feel compelled to move me on to the next grade, i would party and cut class, and eventually be shuffled out the public education system, everyone wins right? smoking, drinking, and treating life like a personal playground was a way to deal with life when i woke up in the morning and said, " Oh shit I'm fucked". I figured a good buzz would make me more personable and funny, yet those habits only tossed me into a deeper state of depression becuase my internal needs of leading a healthy lifestyle weren't satisfied. The most empowering feeling is the first day you put an end to one of those habits which are leaving your mind in complete comatose. Finally deciding to use the brain god has given us is certainly a novel idea. Challenge yourself to one day without the habit that is holding you back and i guarantee it will do wonders for you becuase i know i would be doing nothing with my life if i didn't. Keep a journal of the experiment and watch how much you progress physically, mentally, and in all other aspects. The first day will be hard, but the journal will provide motivation and observations in the attempt to break the habit . The first week i quit smoking i had no clue what to do with myself becuase i was like " Oh my god i have so much free time and have no clue how to use it", of course like any other person struggling through addiction i thought well i can't have cigarettes or weed so let me have a couple beers. The only way i truly conquered my addiction was by taking a proactive stance in life.

Taking initiative sucks at first but feels good when its a habit

Being a proactive person is simply being a doer instead of a talker. We all have met the good talker who sounds too good to be true and usually is. They beam with confidence, and talk up one mean game, yet when crunch time comes to perform the lies and excuses crash down like a waterfall. This was me, the consummate talker who harangued others to woefully make up for my own inadequacies. people who do things are hard workers who get the grades, skills, and success, while people who talk are too busy running there mouth about knowing everything. I lied for so long about so many things that i did not know the difference between a lie or the truth. When i kept my journal it solidified every decision i made becuase the entries from the previous week showed me progress which translated into motivation, and then willpower to keep working even though i wanted a beer, or wanted to lie about exploits which never happened to puff myself out. Motivation comes and goes, but through reflecting and thinking we can reignite the passion pretty quick.
Life is a long journey and we need to be prepared for the hurricanes and earthquakes when they come. Don't give up on life when you fall down, instead turn it into more will power to learn. i felt trapped inside a bad storm on my journey for years and started to tell myself it was too late and it was hopeless, but now through developing the necessary willpower to change i realize i have been reborn and so can you!