The new Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows trailer is out I'd love to hear your thoughts!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB-CRHdaPAo
Also this is a really old song, but it helped me get through some tough time the other day: check out Savage garden!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uB4lT5CblA&feature=related
Friday, July 2, 2010
Feeling alone
I've been isolated from the world, and confused about what exactly i want. Life is like a train when its working; it's a full steam ahead locomotive which can't be stopped, yet when its broken down the tracks seem to be broke constantly. Sometimes its not about knowing what you want especially when your mind changes on a daily basis. I think maybe uncertainty is a sign that i should look for something else in my life to find meaning.
When you have a relationship with someone theres only two options when things go bad, making up, or breaking up. If you choose to breakup theres two ways you can handle the situation. One person will want to fix things and say, " baby i love you we can get through this". However, the Other person will try to play things off completly aloof as if the relationship wasn't even a big deal in the first place, they will forget your number, and forget they ever knew you. I acted like i didn't care, but karma came back to get me becuase six monthes later i was the one crying and she had already moved on. Stuff like this is what makes it scary to be alone, and scary to bring things to an end, but i screw it becuase i refuse to live life wondering "what if".
When you have a relationship with someone theres only two options when things go bad, making up, or breaking up. If you choose to breakup theres two ways you can handle the situation. One person will want to fix things and say, " baby i love you we can get through this". However, the Other person will try to play things off completly aloof as if the relationship wasn't even a big deal in the first place, they will forget your number, and forget they ever knew you. I acted like i didn't care, but karma came back to get me becuase six monthes later i was the one crying and she had already moved on. Stuff like this is what makes it scary to be alone, and scary to bring things to an end, but i screw it becuase i refuse to live life wondering "what if".
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Fear is diabolical
Your Heart is pounding like a drum, every thought has dissappeared, and doubt creeps in like high tide on a mid summer afternoon. Im talking about fear, a rougish emotion which strikes subtly, but undeniably quick. The emotion is shared by most people,and we can choose to use it or let it drain us. I remember when i had to give a speech for the first time, and i was petrified, fidgeting, and my mind felt numb to thought. The only thoughts which were running through my head were run away, or pretend your sick, yet when i actually got up and performed the speech it was empowering. I had accomplished something my mind told me not to attempt, but nothing topped the rush of adrenaline which ensued.
I still get afraid to do things and my mind is a sneaky little bastard. It loves to contradict itself and can convince me i could fly one second, and tell me i can't get out of bed the next. I want to work on living with less fear in my life becuase i have been blessed with one life and it should be cherished and taken advantage of. Trying more things, embracing failure, and ending my obsession with what other people think. Yes sometimes i need to cater to an audience, but ultimatley if i succeed or fail the only person i can blame is myself. Why care about what anyone thinks when they could care less about it. Acting taught me to take risks and go out on a limb. No matter what if you try your best you will have your dignity, and i can certainly live with that.
I still get afraid to do things and my mind is a sneaky little bastard. It loves to contradict itself and can convince me i could fly one second, and tell me i can't get out of bed the next. I want to work on living with less fear in my life becuase i have been blessed with one life and it should be cherished and taken advantage of. Trying more things, embracing failure, and ending my obsession with what other people think. Yes sometimes i need to cater to an audience, but ultimatley if i succeed or fail the only person i can blame is myself. Why care about what anyone thinks when they could care less about it. Acting taught me to take risks and go out on a limb. No matter what if you try your best you will have your dignity, and i can certainly live with that.
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