Your Heart is pounding like a drum, every thought has dissappeared, and doubt creeps in like high tide on a mid summer afternoon. Im talking about fear, a rougish emotion which strikes subtly, but undeniably quick. The emotion is shared by most people,and we can choose to use it or let it drain us. I remember when i had to give a speech for the first time, and i was petrified, fidgeting, and my mind felt numb to thought. The only thoughts which were running through my head were run away, or pretend your sick, yet when i actually got up and performed the speech it was empowering. I had accomplished something my mind told me not to attempt, but nothing topped the rush of adrenaline which ensued.
I still get afraid to do things and my mind is a sneaky little bastard. It loves to contradict itself and can convince me i could fly one second, and tell me i can't get out of bed the next. I want to work on living with less fear in my life becuase i have been blessed with one life and it should be cherished and taken advantage of. Trying more things, embracing failure, and ending my obsession with what other people think. Yes sometimes i need to cater to an audience, but ultimatley if i succeed or fail the only person i can blame is myself. Why care about what anyone thinks when they could care less about it. Acting taught me to take risks and go out on a limb. No matter what if you try your best you will have your dignity, and i can certainly live with that.
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