Flight to Bangkok

    It felt like another dimension when i stepped on the flight to Seoul. Beautiful stewardesses, magazines in chicken scratch, and tofu; It's fair to say i was in lust. I was probably one of the only Caucasians on the flight, but it was an interesting turn of the tables. The stewardesses motioned me to the coach area ," sur! peese! E foty."
 "wuh", "Foty sur! Foty! yew undewstand?"
Everyone was stuffing their carry-ons into the overhead in preparation for the next 18 hours of stagnancy. I finally found my seat in the middle of two jovial looking Korean business men, they gave me a wry smile and let me into my seat which was inconveniently sandwiched between the both of them.
           My heart was pounding like a Cuban bongo drum and with each heartbeat i grew more anxious of the trip. Remember when your were a six year old kid experiencing Christmas for the first time? Having sex? It was one of those nervous, yet i can't believe I'm doing this feelings. The endorphins were freely flowing and that moment made the last 22 years of life worth every second.
                     The flight can't be romanticized too much because after the initial five hour high of movies, peanuts, and stewardesses wore off i realized i had 14 more hours before i landed. As much as you try to fall asleep in coach or get your own personal space, you quickly realize you and  200 other people are screwed  thinking the exact same thing, " these seats suck, my neck hurts, and the food is five weeks old. After dealing with the initial high and then coming back to reality i was ready too meet the new James. 10,0000 miles from New York
 with blue skies  and a beer in front of me; bring it on!


                          

Reasons for Traveling

1.) Have a greater appreciation for family and friends.
2.) learn new skills, languages, and culture
3.) respect foreigners more
/  respect people of different diversity
4.) Learn the true value of a hard earned dollar to the rest of the world
5.) wealth is nice, but time is priceless
6.) develop a broad worldview and see how we are all connected
7.) wake up to the sound of a rooster
8.) see naked children and stray dogs walking the street
9.) learn to plan better
10.) increase mental acuity
11.) try to use sign language to communicate to people who have no clue what your saying
12.) meet great people
13.) wake up and realize your on a beach 10,000 miles away from home
14.) come to terms that you have to do your own laundry, feed yourself, and shop.
15.) most of all-> RELAX! Enjoy life :)

These are just a few of the many reasons to travel. People have such different opinions across the globe, i've met people who said Saddam Hussein was the best thing for Iraq.

whew!

Whew! Sometimes its those little shakeups in your day which are exactly what the doctor ordered. The moments in your day when everything clicks, and for a little while your head breaths clarity.

five signs that you might like somebody.

5.) you make excuses to check your phone every 10 seconds

4.) you daydream about them

3.) you make excuses to see them

2.) you can't pay attention to a word there saying

1.) you start wondering if your just "friends"

Rules!

have you ever gotten tired of letting rules have in your control  life?  Have you ever wondered why you get up and keep showing up to job for a manager who didn't pass high school but continue to roll on a power trip, or  why do i get up and go to school to be taught be teachers who failed at their professions. If you have then its time to perform  a psychoanalysis on yourself. When you search from within i find more often than not that my true passions are dying to unleash. Sure, its expected that i go to school, get a degree, get a cushy corporate job,  have a family, and  bust out three kids but is this my dream, or an idea that's been crammed into my head since i was three years old.
                Its interesting to think more often about the motivations behind our actions. Education is important, but the onus is ultimately on us to educate ourselves. When i have a test on Monday and am having trouble the teacher isn't there to guide me through things and hold my hand becuase if you want to be educated on a certain subject we will teach ourselves. School isn't hard , it just boils down to weather we find a meaning in it. And Should we really waste our time learning something that deep down we think is pointless?
              I see so many people working so hard just to break even, or pay the bills, and when i asked my parents why they show up to work they told me, "becuase everyone has to work". Fuck that, where is the freedom of choice in this? I thought America was suppose to be about how we have the freedom of choice, and if showing up at some meaningless job is what it takes to be part of the 90th percentile in the middle class than i'd honestly rather be poor. At least if i'm poor im not getting raped by the government and watching my tax money flow into the wallets of the richest 1%.
            This notion of going against the grain has always appealed to me, becuase it seems to be what success is all about. I mean if everyone follows the same blueprint then innovation doesn't exist, creativity is stagnant, and change never occurs. Did Martin Luther king follow the blueprint? No. Did Ghandi wait for change to happen? No.
Sure, its scary to be on your own, but think of how gratifying it is to prove all the haters wrong, think of the absolutive euphoria when you finally tame your dreams. Anyways, fuck the rules they were put there to make us think twice about things, but whoever made these rules don't give two shits about me, or you,  so why should we follow them!

Explore

            Sometimes its easy to feel lost. I am constantly asking myself the same questions over and over, what is the purpose of my actions? Do We go to school just for the purpose of getting a better job and moving up the ladder? Or is it something bigger? Either way i don't feel like wasting anymore time.

           One of the biggest flaws of humans is we are privy to procrastination. I'm probably one of the biggest culprits becuase my mind will race with idea after idea, yet i can't seem to focus it in one area. The human mind becomes dangerous once you start putting it to work towards a goal. Most people discover that anything we set our minds to is possible, the only problem is now that we understand the possibilities, we the proper motivation to acheive the goal.

      Life is an adventure, and i want to strive for a change in this world in my limited time, but when i ask others i've heard, " well what can i really do about it". It's that exact attitutude which i want to prove wrong. This is where my idea will come in. If you truly want things in life, you need to first apply yourself, and then continually have motivation. The first step for my idea will be these next few weeks of application where i can hopefully get things rolling.

Song and Trailer of the day!

The new Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows trailer is out I'd love to hear your thoughts!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB-CRHdaPAo

Also this is a really old song, but it helped me get through some tough time the other day: check out Savage garden!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uB4lT5CblA&feature=related

Feeling alone

I've been isolated from the world, and confused about what exactly i want. Life is like a train when its working; it's a full steam ahead locomotive which can't be stopped, yet when its broken down the tracks  seem to be broke constantly. Sometimes its not about knowing what you want especially when your mind changes on a daily basis. I think maybe  uncertainty is a sign that i should look for something else in my life to find meaning.
          When you have a relationship with someone theres only two options when things go bad, making up, or breaking up. If you choose to breakup theres two ways you can handle the situation. One person will want to fix things and say, " baby i love you we can get through this". However, the Other person will try to play things off completly aloof as if the relationship wasn't even a big deal in the first place, they will forget your number, and forget they ever knew you. I acted like i didn't care, but karma came back to get me becuase six monthes later i was the one crying and she had already moved on. Stuff like this is what makes it scary to be alone, and scary to bring things to an end, but i screw it becuase i refuse to live life wondering "what if".